Christmas is not all tinsel and glitter is it? January 05 2015, 1 Comment

Am I allowed to say this Xmas sucked? For those who have partners who work shift work I'm sure you can relate, for those of you who have families with certain challenges I'm sure you can relate too. Although some of you may think, "cry me a river" I'm sure others will be thinking "cheers to that, I agree completely, thank god it's over". Honestly, it's such a hard time, lonely, expectations are never met and reflections, oh the reflections. Sorry I've been trying not to write this but tonight I thought bugger it. I have felt so anxious and have just completely hidden away this last week trying to tell myself it's ok. I chatted with a couple of friends today who have felt exactly the same so know it's not just me. It's just a really really weird time of year, I was starting to feel a bit better this afternoon when I was hit with what felt like a bus. Another company, local at that, has completely copied one of my designs (well a few to be honest but one in particular) word for word. I can think of a few words to use in this instance but will use "wow". So shocked anyone would be that brazen and disrespectful.
I am not perfect but at 45 I can now confidently say I am a nice person and will do anything for anyone but hurt one of my children or try and take something of mine that isn't yours and I will do my utmost to protect it (which is now in place). I don't understand people sometimes, we are all just trying our best. Anyway then an hour later a girlfriend showed me the Mamamia article featuring our sack in the background of Megan Gale's gorgeous Xmas celebrations. This business is an absolute roller coaster, the fears of putting myself out there, the constant juggle of trying to be present with the kids but meet my clients needs, maintaining my friendships which are totally struggling due to having nothing left after working so many hours and only being able to give what's left to family. I'm sure all working parents can relate it certainly takes a toll one way or another. Anyway, I'll take a deep breath, suck it up and move on, tomorrow is another day, who knows what it will bring . Hope your christmas was better, honestly x